Rambling Free Flow

Please read this in one long breath, a rambling free flowing piece of prose.

Isn’t it true then, the moments or miracles are always the same thing, just that, moments or miracles, and even if we could tell the difference between the two I don’t think it would matter because matter is heavy and life is heavy but you can’t hold my life in your hands well sure I guess you could, but you can’t hold water in my heart and I can’t drink from your mind even though I may die of thirst in the waiting

the waiting room isn’t a room either it is just another way for me to draw out the so long farewell see you later next timeline, maybe I shouldn’t write to you, the ideas that I juggle and pick at, like a scab that won’t heal, not because the blood doesn’t flow but because the beavers dam the river every damn day and damned if you do damned if I didn’t and now look I forgot what the hell we were even here doing, like what is the point man, isn’t that the whole thing, right, the center of the core, even past the center, we don’t want the bullseye, it isn’t close enough to the answer, an answer to an equation that isn’t made of numbers might be more calculable if you just used people instead of digits, and then the billions would matter more or maybe they would matter less it depends on which side of which arbitrary border you spread your legs on, and get high on, and fuck on, and drink on, and gorge on, and die on, the land will welcome you where ever you fall and that is the sort of karmic bedmaking I can really get behind the venetian curtain I find the peace at last and it was never anything greasy or oily at all in fact it was clean and light like that linen fresh scent that linen clothes have never made naturally on their own just existing and smelling like downy fucking laundry softener, if life were lined with linen shirts we would have an arm to lean on, you can’t depend on anyone but yourself, it is true, like the conundrum of Schrodinger and how much of a cocksucking asshole he was to kill a cat in a box, should have told you there would be a spoiler, we can’t pretend we have any answers at all.

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